First off DO NOT MISUNDERSTAND THE TITLE! So a few days ago I learned that my sister was pregnant for the second time in her life. So today they were talking about names boy names and girl names I guess they are not far enough along to know what it might be. While we were talking about baby names she started talking about our childhood when we played games like house. She kept saying the name "derik". I was so confused at who the heck derik was at first! She kept questioning my memory as if this "derik" person was important. Eventually I came to the conclusion she was talking about the name"eric" which was the name of a male character she played in our house role play game.... Good to know its not my memory thats screwed up!


"Age is not a measure of wisdom, if I meet a 100-year old man. I will teach him and if I meet an 8-year old boy who can teach me, I will learn."

"You don't know this new me, I put the pieces back together differently."

I feel so annoyed today. You have one of those days where nothing you do feels like its going right. Played about 10 league matches today and lost every single one of them. Lost my gold rank all the way down to 0LP. I don't believe in ELO hell, but holy heck sometimes those team mates that you just get... game after game. I had to solo lane today against 2 players as the adc while my support afkd. Then at the end of the game get flamed for dying under turret. It was so sad! Just feel like I need a break from that game for a bit I think.

So ever since I was younger I did something I highly regretted. After the whole ordeal it really changed my opinion on some things. Friends are so much more important to me now. I am always so afraid of losing the people important to me. So one of the ways I have always coped with that is by doing what people ask me to do. I listen to their problems even when I know I am just being used as a listening tool. For some reason I was happy with that. I was just simply happy that I was useful and that some people were willing to tell me their problems and entrust them into me. I understand that a lot of people might feel really similar to me. I am learning to stick up for myself when people tell me they don't want to be my friend anymore. I use to think that it was my fault when no one wanted to be around me. I don't want to think like that anymore if someone doesn't want to be around me than that is their loss not mine! Have any of you had any life changing experiences? Maybe I will share some of my life changing experiences with everyone.


"Life is too short to wake up with regrets so love the people who treat you right. Forget about those who don't believe. Everything happens for a reason. If you get the chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it nobody said life would be easy. They just promised it would most likely be worth it!"