First off DO NOT MISUNDERSTAND THE TITLE! So a few days ago I learned that my sister was pregnant for the second time in her life. So today they were talking about names boy names and girl names I guess they are not far enough along to know what it might be. While we were talking about baby names she started talking about our childhood when we played games like house. She kept saying the name "derik". I was so confused at who the heck derik was at first! She kept questioning my memory as if this "derik" person was important. Eventually I came to the conclusion she was talking about the name"eric" which was the name of a male character she played in our house role play game.... Good to know its not my memory thats screwed up!


"Age is not a measure of wisdom, if I meet a 100-year old man. I will teach him and if I meet an 8-year old boy who can teach me, I will learn."

"You don't know this new me, I put the pieces back together differently."

I feel so annoyed today. You have one of those days where nothing you do feels like its going right. Played about 10 league matches today and lost every single one of them. Lost my gold rank all the way down to 0LP. I don't believe in ELO hell, but holy heck sometimes those team mates that you just get... game after game. I had to solo lane today against 2 players as the adc while my support afkd. Then at the end of the game get flamed for dying under turret. It was so sad! Just feel like I need a break from that game for a bit I think.

So ever since I was younger I did something I highly regretted. After the whole ordeal it really changed my opinion on some things. Friends are so much more important to me now. I am always so afraid of losing the people important to me. So one of the ways I have always coped with that is by doing what people ask me to do. I listen to their problems even when I know I am just being used as a listening tool. For some reason I was happy with that. I was just simply happy that I was useful and that some people were willing to tell me their problems and entrust them into me. I understand that a lot of people might feel really similar to me. I am learning to stick up for myself when people tell me they don't want to be my friend anymore. I use to think that it was my fault when no one wanted to be around me. I don't want to think like that anymore if someone doesn't want to be around me than that is their loss not mine! Have any of you had any life changing experiences? Maybe I will share some of my life changing experiences with everyone.


"Life is too short to wake up with regrets so love the people who treat you right. Forget about those who don't believe. Everything happens for a reason. If you get the chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it nobody said life would be easy. They just promised it would most likely be worth it!"

I really hate coming across a situation where I have to decide right and wrong. But, in the end their is not a right decision. Sometimes I think that when their is a decision to be made that sometimes all the decisions are wrong. That their really isn't a right one. The reason I say that is because no matter which decision you make someone will always be upset at you. It can be so stressful when you feel you have made the best possible decision and to have everyone stare you down. Have any of you ever had a situation where you felt you just couldn't be right no matter the decision you made?


"A true leader has the confidence to stand alone, the courage to make tough decisions, and the compassion to listen to the needs of others. He does not set out to be a leader, but becomes one by the equality of his actions and the integrity of his intent. - Douglas"

So I love looking at cute clothing or dressing myself up nicely when I do things. One of my favorite things to collect are shoes... Now when I say I have a lot of shoes, I mean I have a lot of shoes. *cough cough* 50+ pairs. Well, I was thinking about my mine craft skin for Halloween and what I should do for it. At that moment I realized how much of a girl I am when it comes to being one everywhere I go. I checked my skin folder only to realize I had over 20 different outfits made out for my base mine craft skin. I guess being a girl just follows me everywhere I go! Not quite sure what I am going to make as my Halloween outfit any ideas?


"Just girl things"

You know those nights where you are on a proper sleeping schedule like, bed by 10PM and awake by 6AM? Those are always nice, but have you ever had that issue where your just like "one more hour then I will sleep". Before you realize it you just don't want to sleep. That seems to happen to me a lot. In my opinion I actually think sleeping is a waste of time and that their just isn't enough time in the day. Of course I sleep still, normally when my body just gives out on me. But, in general I think just feel so much more energized on a regular schedule. It sucks though when you prefer the night shift over the day shift, but want to be awake on the day shift as well the struggles! What do you guys usually do for a sleeping schedule or is it as random as mine?

 Sorry about my poor grammar, writing, skills in this post. I literally am writing this at 12:20PM and I haven't slept all night yay me. 


"Sleeping on my keyboard, if I respond I am talking in my sleep"

So today I thought I would talk about something I really hate. So every morning I make toast. I love my morning toast. I am sure just about everyone does. So one of the things that my parents like to do to save money is buying this stick of butter. This stick of butter I like to call it the unspreadable butter. Sometimes I will wake up in the morning to realize their just isn't any regular butter and I have to use this unspreadable stick of butter. Where I have to fight tooth and nail just to get it on the bread. Today I had to experience something even worse. Did you know they make bread that you can't spread stuff on!?!? I know like what the fuck? So my parents went out of the way to get this really soft white bread as to where if you takea  butter knife and try to rub some butter on it. You just end up destroying the bread. So here I have unspreadable butter and unspreadable bread. I think I am just going to toast the bread from now on and not add butter! My parents make my morning miserable with lots of love. Do any of you guys might have some daily pet peeves?

Sorry about only having one post yesterday. I slept way longer then I had originally wanted to!


"It's definitely not butter"